Thursday, January 7, 2010
Well I felt the need to start my weight loss journal & fitness journal over since I have worked out only a handful of times the past 1 1/2 months & I haven't weighed myself until this morning. I regretfully say that I am now 204.6lbs. This is another area in my life that I know I NEED to change. So, here it is. I am starting this weight loss journal again & prayerfully I will have weight LOSS to show every week.
Last night I went to a conference at Faith Baptist Church in Tacoma. My 'old' Pastor from Hopewell Baptist in Napa, CA was preaching. He preached a great sermon about Fishing for Jesus & to not take your pole out of the water when things get tough or you get discouraged, you don't know what blessings are coming down stream. God spoke to my heart through that sermon. I feel like I pulled my pole out of the water a long time ago.
Watching the sunrise this morning I couldn't help but think about my relationship with God or the lack thereof. I had a real urge to read my Bible which honestly I have struggled with that want for a long time. I read today Matt. 13-15 & it truly spoke to my heart. It made me think about what kind of Christian am I. I still go to church, I still love God, I still learn new things but my life is not where I should be.
I haven't spoken up about God outside of church in a while because I've been to 'scared' of what people would think. I haven't led anyone to the Lord in a very long time. My heart just hasn't been in the right place. I don't know exactly what God has in store for my life, but I do know that I am finally ready to listen & go where He wants me.
Please pray for me in this time as I know Satan will be attacking me & my family as I grow stronger with the Lord. I want to be the type of Christian that people can see it on my face, hear it in my words & feel it from my heart. I don't want to be afraid to stand up for Jesus.